i am a christian. but i don't want to go to heaven. not that i want to go to hell, either. the idea of spending eternity anywhere is, quite frankly, terrifying. the thought of death has always been a comfort to me. i've always thought of death as peaceful, like a deep, dreamless sleep after a long, hard day.
but eternal life in heaven with god? that’s FOREVER. and i don’t know if i can do forever, especially an eternity in paradise, an eternity of perfection. life has it’s own unique charm because it’s a series of obstacles to be overcome and every day is a new challenge, an everlasting puzzle to be solved.